Tuesday, April 12, 2011
♥ Oh the drama ...
I feel so alone right now ... really alone. I feel guilty about the situation, and I was right to since everyone IS blaming me for what's going on. I won't say that it isn't, because any relationship is a 2-way street ... but tobe blamed entirely for everything? Woooooowwww ...
Do I feel betrayed? Yes ... I've been lied to by the people I love. How am I supposed to believe anything they say again? My gut feel was right ... should never have doubted it. My distrust for people are well founded. If people you love can betray you like that, what more people who aren't even related to you?
My gut feel says to cut ties - and as much as I'd love to follow that, that's pretty hard right now. It's complicated. I want out. I really do. Now if only I can find the courage to take that first step ...
Do I feel betrayed? Yes ... I've been lied to by the people I love. How am I supposed to believe anything they say again? My gut feel was right ... should never have doubted it. My distrust for people are well founded. If people you love can betray you like that, what more people who aren't even related to you?
My gut feel says to cut ties - and as much as I'd love to follow that, that's pretty hard right now. It's complicated. I want out. I really do. Now if only I can find the courage to take that first step ...
11:48 AM
Thursday, March 31, 2011
♥ Tumblr
I don't even know WHY I started a Tumblr account ... it's not like I can actually rant and speak what I actually feel since most of the poeple following me there are KIDS ... *sigh*
So, back to my ever-trusty blog (^_^) ... where I can be myself, no pretenses. I can rant. Vent. Be mad at the world and be able to tell it! Best part ... only a select few and trusted friends know about it! Woohoo!!! Liberating!!
I've never been one to keep my emotions in ... and I realized, why do I have to be someone who isn't me just to please certain people? So what if they don't think I'm a perfect role-model? I never made myself out to be one anyway! So, yeah, goodbye Tumblr. Unless my close friends (the ones worthy to follow) actually get back on you, I bid you adieu.
So, back to my ever-trusty blog (^_^) ... where I can be myself, no pretenses. I can rant. Vent. Be mad at the world and be able to tell it! Best part ... only a select few and trusted friends know about it! Woohoo!!! Liberating!!
I've never been one to keep my emotions in ... and I realized, why do I have to be someone who isn't me just to please certain people? So what if they don't think I'm a perfect role-model? I never made myself out to be one anyway! So, yeah, goodbye Tumblr. Unless my close friends (the ones worthy to follow) actually get back on you, I bid you adieu.
1:27 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2011
♥ You are where God wants you to be
Another one bites the dust … another friend (John from the Art Dept.) is leaving the company. I’m so happy for him that he’s found a better place to work! I’m always happy for the people who leave and find better lives outside of here … and I always remind myself that I am where God wants me to be.
I have been here for 11 years now … and my body, mind, and spirit are feeling every minute of those 11 years. Yup … I’m tired, stressed, over-worked - and that’s saying something coming from a workaholic as myself. Over the years, I’ve tried to find other jobs. So many people have looked when I looked, and they found and moved on, and here I remained. There was a bitterness in my heart those first few years, until I came to accept that I AM WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO BE.
Now, the situation is the same, but my outlook is different. I remain happy for those with the fortune to find something better, I am with the people who have the fortitude to stay. It is a truth that I have come to whole-heartedly accept and adhere to: You cannot move when God wants you to stay. You cannot stay when God wants you to move. You are where God wants you to be.
GOOD LUCK JOHN! DON’T BE A STRANGER!
1:11 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
♥ “TRYING”
‘Trying’ is just an excuse when you only SAY you’re trying. TRYING requires ACTION! To try is to make an an attempt or effort - ACTION. Just standing there and thinking about it does NOT denote trying. Looking at me and telling me you are trying is NOT trying.
Stop trying to try. Go Nike - just do it. Enough with the excuses. ‘Nuff said.
1:10 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
♥ Simple Truths
- Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
- A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.
- If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn’t oversleep.
- Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.
- The best vitamin for making friends….. B1.
- The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
- The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge.
- One thing you can give and still keep … is your word.
- You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.
- If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.
- One thing you can’t recycle is wasted time.
- Ideas won’t work unless ’ You’ do.
- Your mind is like a parachute … it functions only when open.
- The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.
- The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.
- Life is too short to wake up with regrets … So love the people who treat you right … Forget about the ones who don’t. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
- Friends are like balloons; Once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we’ve let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who’s right and who’s wrong that we forget what’s right and wrong. Sometimes we just don’t realize what real friendship means until it is too late. Don’t let that happen … tie them to your heart so you never lose them.
1:09 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2011
♥ Happy 15th Princess!
Time flies … time really flies. I can’t believe that this little girl is now a lady. I’m amazed at how she’s grown. I’m so proud of her dedication to the Lord, her commitment to improve and be better, the maturity she’s showing relationship-wise. I love her heart, how it always beats for the Lord, how she loves her brother and sister, how she loves her family, her friends. I love how she and her friends made a commitment to not let anything come between God, family, and sisterhood. I love you Justine! Happy 15th birthday … don’t grow up too fast … we still enjoy babying you (^_^)

1:09 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
♥ aaaahhh l’amour
Now here are words I never thought I’d ever say - not even in my wildest dreams … I had the BEST VALENTINE’S DAY EVER!!!! … All thanks to the love of my life, my best friend, my husband, My Boo!
I never plan for Vday - but I did want to take the kids out for dessert … so I abandoned my post early (meaning I actually left work on time LOL). I get home, and this is what greets me … with RJ running out of the room coz he wasn’t expecting me home so early (read: on time).
Another thing I never thought would happen … I fell in love (even more) on Valentine’s Day … I love his heart, I love his sweetness, and I especially love how he knows me so well … and I feel like a dope for not getting him anything … but I’m a very happy dope (^_^)

I’m still not a fan of Valentine’s Day … but he just made me dislike it a little less (^_^)
1:08 PM
